Showing posts with label Self esteem. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Self esteem. Show all posts

Monday, August 09, 2010

Self Esteem Destroyed


With teeth clenched, I reluctantly forced myself to go clothing shopping over the weekend, and this is what I felt like ... I am well aware that 'shopping' out here, where there aren't a lot of shoppers, is a challenge, and 'we' are probably last on the list for where the suppliers want to park their line of clothing but ... I am not this size, but from the clothing I tried on, I felt like it.

I'm not asking for much - a few nice pair of slacks and a few blouses. Why are all the slacks made with Lycra??? blackkkgkgkh!, it feels awful! And why are all the blouses see-through polyester with fringes, ruffles, and flouncy sashes. While polyester has it's place, I don't want it, and Lycra feels awful, and polyester never washes with a nice freshness. And why are the racks full of sleeveless little spaghetti strap tops, in the Women's area, where many of us suffer from 'bat wings?' I gave up early. Doesn't anyone know about quality cotton t-shirts any more?

I started my diet after walking out of the dressing room, hands empty. 15 lbs. have GOT to go away!

Even the quilt shop jaunt afterwards, did not lift my spirits.

On a positive note - the store DID have 2 slightly rounded mannequins, probably all of a "huge" size 12, -- gotta tell ya, whoever dressed them had no idea of how to dress a size 12 in anything flattering.

That's my gripe for today. I'm going upstairs to find some carrots.